[ Nier is used to death. It just happens whether you want it to or not, but this place seemed nice. There's enough food for everyone, they can sleep under a roof, so he had hoped things might be different despite circumstances. ]
Seeing that we had no choice in a handful of things, it was going to turn out like this. [ ... ] There's no point in thinking about what-ifs.
...you're right... it's not like we can change the past.
[no amount of thinking about it will change the fact that hiyori is dead, and that kaoruko was executed, and that otome had to take part in sending her off.]
[ Nier lets out an affirmative hum. They can only look to the future, though he has to wonder what happened. ]
Did you talk to her? Kaoruko. [ Before the execution, after trial. ] We might be able to know if there's anything we could have prevented... Like if maybe she did this because she was told to, or if she was controlled.
[ He has no idea WHY? But he doesn't know what's fucking happening in this place. ]
[partly because I passed out before I could ask francy for a PC, but also:]
During the trial, when I thought she'd just hurt her hands from training, she seemed annoyed when I asked questions and called Otome over to help her. I thought... Especially after I was the one who brought the dog back... Trying to talk to her might make her more upset.
A lot happened and that's understandable. She was getting attacked from many sides in the gym, so she might have closed communication with most of us... Seeing that she said nothing when she was taken away. [ Nier was suspicious, but he didn't feel it was in the right place for him to accuse. ] I'm sure someone has.
[ A nod, though he isn't too confident. There's not much they can do, though. ]
I really thought it wasn't her, right up until... [...] ...until Bloody Mary got aggressive with her, and she got up and it seemed like she was injured...
[but the chances of kaoruko believing that seemed slim to her, soo.]
I hope someone did. I don't understand why she killed him, but... someone wouldn't do something like that if they didn't feel backed into a corner of some kind, right? Unless they felt like they didn't have any other choice...?
...for them to have updated the rules the way they did, they probably expect this to be a normal thing...
[so! so.
lila doesn't seem to know what she thinks of that. she sighs.]
I was able to email Sally again, so maybe we can try to talk to the dorm heads about it...? But she doesn't really seem to know much about what happened. She even said she didn't remember much about Thursday because she had a fever, even though we heard that sound from upstairs...
[ About everything that seems native to this place, from NPC classmates, to the Principal, and also the dorm heads, but he can't fault those that are unaware and oblivious to the workings themselves. However, anything can be a lie. ]
But any information is still something. [ He praises Lila's proactiveness nevertheless. ] For now, we can try to ease our minds.
Really? I've seen them before, but usually in the wild - like, you can see them on nature walks or when you're hiking, but you have to be really careful so they don't attack.
Oh, and I've seen pictures of them on the internet, too.
Hmm... It depends on the book. Some cookbooks I saw had photos in them, but the colors are washed out. There are some books about animals and flora that have pictures, but they're more like drawings.
There's probably more. Not like I read all the books in my village's library.
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It makes this sky quite a sight, at least?
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[seeing stars for the first time... wao]
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[ He is twenty-two and still seeing new things. ]
... How are you doing, Lila?
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[of course he'd want to clear his mind after everything.]
I'm... [she sighs] I won't lie, today and yesterday... Everything since Friday, really... It's been tough.
I keep thinking about it and wondering if there was anything we could have done differently, or if it was always going to turn out like this.
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[ Nier is used to death. It just happens whether you want it to or not, but this place seemed nice. There's enough food for everyone, they can sleep under a roof, so he had hoped things might be different despite circumstances. ]
Seeing that we had no choice in a handful of things, it was going to turn out like this. [ ... ] There's no point in thinking about what-ifs.
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[no amount of thinking about it will change the fact that hiyori is dead, and that kaoruko was executed, and that otome had to take part in sending her off.]
We can only hope that the future is better.
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Did you talk to her? Kaoruko. [ Before the execution, after trial. ] We might be able to know if there's anything we could have prevented... Like if maybe she did this because she was told to, or if she was controlled.
[ He has no idea WHY? But he doesn't know what's fucking happening in this place. ]
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[partly because I passed out before I could ask francy for a PC, but also:]
During the trial, when I thought she'd just hurt her hands from training, she seemed annoyed when I asked questions and called Otome over to help her. I thought... Especially after I was the one who brought the dog back... Trying to talk to her might make her more upset.
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[ GET REST. ]
A lot happened and that's understandable. She was getting attacked from many sides in the gym, so she might have closed communication with most of us... Seeing that she said nothing when she was taken away. [ Nier was suspicious, but he didn't feel it was in the right place for him to accuse. ] I'm sure someone has.
[ A nod, though he isn't too confident. There's not much they can do, though. ]
We'll figure this all out.
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I really thought it wasn't her, right up until... [...] ...until Bloody Mary got aggressive with her, and she got up and it seemed like she was injured...
[but the chances of kaoruko believing that seemed slim to her, soo.]
I hope someone did. I don't understand why she killed him, but... someone wouldn't do something like that if they didn't feel backed into a corner of some kind, right? Unless they felt like they didn't have any other choice...?
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[ So, yes, Nier ultimately agrees. There has to be a reason for a regular girl to kill. ]
If this is part of their game, we need to know.
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[so! so.
lila doesn't seem to know what she thinks of that. she sighs.]
I was able to email Sally again, so maybe we can try to talk to the dorm heads about it...? But she doesn't really seem to know much about what happened. She even said she didn't remember much about Thursday because she had a fever, even though we heard that sound from upstairs...
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[ About everything that seems native to this place, from NPC classmates, to the Principal, and also the dorm heads, but he can't fault those that are unaware and oblivious to the workings themselves. However, anything can be a lie. ]
But any information is still something. [ He praises Lila's proactiveness nevertheless. ] For now, we can try to ease our minds.
[ So they don't work with shaky nerves. ]
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[she takes a breath.]
Right. We're going to want to be as clearheaded as possible, so we can figure things out.
[it's going to be such a long year.]
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Clearheaded, bright-eyed, bushytailed... They have to look forward. ]
I read that there are constellations in the sky at night. Do you recognize any?
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...none of them really look familiar to me, but uh, that one kind of looks like a bear?
[she points.]
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How?
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Like that, see?
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[ Him: constellations are fake ]
Not that I've seen a lot of bears before. The Principal is actually the girst.
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Oh, and I've seen pictures of them on the internet, too.
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There are some books in the library, but not all of them have pictures.
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What kind of pictures did the books have?
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There's probably more. Not like I read all the books in my village's library.
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