they're both locked in at the summer dorm, which means alphinaud can't run. but she's sort of keeping her distance since he seemed so uncomfortable before?
...she keeps sneaking worried glances in his direction, though. do you feel like you're being looked at, alphi? that's probably why.]
[ He hadn't experienced being coerced into the dormitory last week, having been an early returner himself, but this time he has. Alphinaud seems visibly frustrated by this.
But he's quiet, and keeps to himself as much as he can, sticking around in places where there's less people to run into. It's not a large place however, and he's easily found, as Lila has demonstrated; she'll find him in the common room, finishing off his fourth cup of tea, and he gets up—with some wincing—to prepare another.
That's when he notices her looking. He pauses, then lets out a slow breath; even he knows it's unreasonable to believe he could avoid her for long, but he just—
No. It wasn't real, it wasn't real, it wasn't real... ]
...for what? You haven't done anything I need to forgive you for.
[hello? he was grievously injured? there's no reason why he should have to just stick around. and speaking of that - after a moment, she holds out some burn ointment to him. no, i do not know how it's packaged.]
anyway, lila's brow furrows, but after a moment, she nods.]
...okay, you don't have to tell me. But... talk to someone, eventually, okay? Even if it isn't me. It seems like this is eating you up inside, and you shouldn't have to carry it alone.
You have my thanks, Lila. I know not where I may go from here... But there is an awful, terrible truth that must lurk somewhere underneath this illusion of a school, and we cannot allow any more to be subjected to what ever lies beneath.
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they're both locked in at the summer dorm, which means alphinaud can't run. but she's sort of keeping her distance since he seemed so uncomfortable before?
...she keeps sneaking worried glances in his direction, though. do you feel like you're being looked at, alphi? that's probably why.]
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But he's quiet, and keeps to himself as much as he can, sticking around in places where there's less people to run into. It's not a large place however, and he's easily found, as Lila has demonstrated; she'll find him in the common room, finishing off his fourth cup of tea, and he gets up—with some wincing—to prepare another.
That's when he notices her looking. He pauses, then lets out a slow breath; even he knows it's unreasonable to believe he could avoid her for long, but he just—
No. It wasn't real, it wasn't real, it wasn't real... ]
... Lila. Pray forgive me.
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[hello? he was grievously injured? there's no reason why he should have to just stick around. and speaking of that - after a moment, she holds out some burn ointment to him. no, i do not know how it's packaged.]
Here. I hope this helps...
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Thank you. I do not deserve your kindness, but I shall not waste it.
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[alphinaud what. why?? lila's brow furrows.]
What do you mean, you don't deserve it...? We're friends. Of course I'm going to be kind to you... especially when you've been nothing but kind to me.
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Alphinaud doesn't know how many times he has to repeat it wasn't real to himself before he'll believe it. ]
I— I am speaking strangely. I apologize; I have not been able to think straight.
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[just. judging by his burns... and everything...]
Would it help to talk about it? Maybe it would make organizing your thoughts easier...?
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There are horrid acts I have committed, Lila, and I do not dare to think of burdening you with any of it.
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sounds fake to her]
...keeping it to yourself is burdening you, though, isn't it? It's not a burdren, I want to help.
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[ There's a desperation that grows in his voice. ]
I beg of you. I cannot.
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anyway, lila's brow furrows, but after a moment, she nods.]
...okay, you don't have to tell me. But... talk to someone, eventually, okay? Even if it isn't me. It seems like this is eating you up inside, and you shouldn't have to carry it alone.
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You have my thanks, Lila. I know not where I may go from here... But there is an awful, terrible truth that must lurk somewhere underneath this illusion of a school, and we cannot allow any more to be subjected to what ever lies beneath.
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[
and then lwj gets murdered that very night. wow.]
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Nor do I... Pray, ware your step henceforth. That we are once again locked within our dormitories bodes ill for what's to come.
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To the best of my ability, I shall.
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...thank you.