[it's obvious enough that there's no way to avoid seeing the memories of the others here, and there's no way to prevent her own memories being broadcast for whoever is nearest to see. lila doesn't really like it, but there's nothing she can do to change it.
and lan wangji has been a good enough influence on her that she doesn't throw a tantrum about it, at least.
she's just raising a hand to return his nod with a wave when his memory overtakes her.
it's lonely. the only word she can think of to describe what she's just seen is lonely, and that more than anything gets her to almost say something sympathetic. only almost, though, because - perhaps because she's thinking about mothers - her own memory starts up, just moments after his finishes.
the room in her memory is messy, and so is the living room she passes through to get to the kitchen. when was the last time her mother actually came home? a while. he'll get the sense that she doesn't believe it when her mother says she'll be home that weekend on the voicemail, because she keeps saying that, but she never follows through.
but it's okay. she's fine. she's doing great.
...or not. she pauses, her hand partly in the air, and can't quite find words once it's done.]
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and lan wangji has been a good enough influence on her that she doesn't throw a tantrum about it, at least.
she's just raising a hand to return his nod with a wave when his memory overtakes her.
it's lonely. the only word she can think of to describe what she's just seen is lonely, and that more than anything gets her to almost say something sympathetic. only almost, though, because - perhaps because she's thinking about mothers - her own memory starts up, just moments after his finishes.
the room in her memory is messy, and so is the living room she passes through to get to the kitchen. when was the last time her mother actually came home? a while. he'll get the sense that she doesn't believe it when her mother says she'll be home that weekend on the voicemail, because she keeps saying that, but she never follows through.
but it's okay. she's fine. she's doing great.
...or not. she pauses, her hand partly in the air, and can't quite find words once it's done.]